d new me

selective person..yup..dats d new me..ak mmg blh go on wif everybody but only in terms of friends relationship..but if dh membabitkn soal ati,ak mmg x mampu la nk bka ati ni kt spe2..mlsla..serabut je..n lately,ak akn avoid spe je yg start nk feeling2 ngn ak..pedulik la..lg 1,mostly kwn2 llki ak ckp ak garang..ad yg still stay by myside n ade yg x ske sbb dorg nk pompuan yg mnja2 n lemah lembut..sorila..bkn ak..x kuasa ak nk mnja2 n gedik2 kt llki2 tu sume..kwn je pon..jgn nk lbh2 k..ak dh penat jga ati org..so now ak dh x kisah lelaki tu sume nk ckp pe..i hv gone through wif so many liars..ak dh penah frust b'cnta..ak dh penah d tipu.kna tpu n tertipu..ak dh penat mkn ati..ak dh penat jga ati ex bf ak b4 dis..ak dh penat d permenkn..so ckupla..sgt t'tutup ati tok b'cnta lg tp tok kwn,ak sntiasa on..tp kwn jela ok..

my bad day

td kua umah kul 4..hajatny nk poie pkns bank in sewa umah kt atin..tup2 tgh jln kaki otw g bus stop,oh mak aihh!!!!! ak lupa bwa duit tok byr sewa tu..ok fine..mls dh nk pth blk tgh panas camtu..then tgu seranas..b'kurun jg bus tu nk smpi..trun kt sec 2 n then tgu lak t529..yg ni pn b'kurun jg tgu tp ati ttp sbr k..puasa!!!!then g sec 17 bli tket blk raya..pastu p pusing2 bazar ramadhan kt situ..juz bli rojak ayam je..after dat tgu lak bus nk p pkns..bus yg sma,t529..masyaAllah rmi tol mnsia nek bus tu..rmai lak tu yg hnsem..d sbbkn ak ni pompuan,puas ak cover bdn ak dr t'kna or t'lnggar dorg time dorg lalu dpn ak..aish..t'calar segalanya..puas elak ke kiri knan..bhya2..aset kot..then p pkns..maybank deposit machine xde kt situ..so b'sesak2 la p pas lak..

otw p sna, rse mcm rye dh dkt je sbb meriah sgt2 dgn booth2 yg jual bju2 raya..then msa lalu kt bdk pakistan or bangla yg jual tisu n minta sedekah kt kaki lima jln tu,ak t'kagum sbntr bl tgk die tgh on col dgn fon yg giler babun canggih..t'teleng2 kpla ak tgk die..humak aih,siyes ak x mampu nk pki fon canggih2 camtu.kayanye kau dik mampu pki fon secanggih tu even kje ko jual tisu je ari2...ok..sentap..dh smpi pas,t'cri2 lak atm machine yg t'sorok area lift tu..blh lak atm tu dh xde..haiyoo..

then back to pkns..p bersesak2 kt bazar ramdhan lak..pergh..lautan mnsia sgguh kt situ..giler rmi org..jln pn kna ati2 tkut t'lnggar org..dh puas bli mknan,lepak la kt krusi dpn kdi bku sementra tgu waktu b'bka..b'bka kt situ jela..nsb rmi gak yg jd gelandangan aritu..x la segan b'bka even ak xde peneman..then p bsn nk kuakn duit..blh lak tiga2 atm machine kt situ xde duit..sengal3x!!!!!ak penat tau 4 jam dok kt mall tu semta2 nk setelkn hal bank in sewa umah ak tp 1 pn x jdi..dh pth ati sgt,amek teksi blk umah trus......

pantang

ak benci gler bl org ckp ak cntik pdhal die knl ak pn x..stakat tgk gmbr je n then trus nk puji2..klu x cntik,cnfirm xnk kwn kn??kwn pn sbb dlm gmbr tu nmpk cntik..jgn hrpla ak nk kwn dgn die klu dh mcm tu..tgk kecantikn semta2..x ikhlas lngsung..

tlg jgn jtuh cnta kt sy..kli ni sy tol2 xnk ad pape hbgn special dgn spe2..i juz wanna b ur fren..dats all..don expect me to give more to u..siyesly i cant..sy dh ckp jgn ad perasaan len antra kte slen prsn syg sorg shbt sbb sy xleh nk bg lbh dr tu..sy bkn jns yg senang nk bg ati kt org even keliling sy rmai yg nk share ati die dgn sy..kte start dgn kwn n hope smpi bl2 pn stil kwn..sy tau sy akn fall kt some1 once i met him at d 1st place..but skrg ati sy tol2 x t'bka kt awk,awk n awk..so xperlu la nk msg sy ari2 n m'hrpkn sy msg awk k..xperlu jg nk mrh2 klu sy x reply msg awk..if x pntg,xperlu la nk over protected or jelousy thp gaban kt sy..form d bottom of my heart,sy dh x pcye cnta sblm kawin..sy x rse nk b'cnta pn skrg ni..ati ni insyaAllah dlm msa t'dkt ni xkn t'bka dkt spe2..1st time ak ad feeling negatif towards love cmni..pls don jiwang2 karat dgn ak k..mud ak akn spoil trus nti..i juz cant to b in luf again until i met some1 yg insyaAllah akn jd suami ak nti..

lately dh ad penyakit bru..rimas btl dgn pnyakit ni..nk rawat pn susah sbb dh mcm sebati lak dlm dri ni..dlu dh penah kna skli..amek msa 4 taun jg nk rawat..kli ni dtg blk..dh mcm cyst lak sbb blh ilang n then kna blk..x ske la..klu jmp doc pn,doc tntu xleh wat pape..kna jmp psychiatrist ni..ehek..yucks..dh mcm mental lak..
actually ak sgt2 x ske dgr n bce ayt2 jiwang..klu ad fren list ak post kt fb,adui..rse nk remove je dorg tu dr fren list ak sbb jiwang giler..lg 1,ak dh x cye la cinta2 b4 kawin ni..i learnt a lot from my past experiences but to tell them yg tgh hangat b'cinta tu spy beragak2 dlm m'beri ati,cnfirmla dorg xkn dgr unless dorg sndr dh rse skitny putus cnta..but most of them x penah bljr dr luka dlu..
once jtuh cnta,ko syg die giler2 even llki tu ur 3rd or 4th lover of yours..meaning dat ko dh adn experience putus cnta b4 dis but never learn from dat lesson..pls wake up..there is no true luv unless u get marry wif dat guy ..

redha

ak bhgia cmni..wlupn xde bf tp ati ak tenang..wlupn sumeny dh jd kenangan tp ak b'syukur sglanya dh berakhir..rindu????yup rindu giler kt die tp skrg x lg...perasaan tu ak dh kuburkn ktne ntah..dh ilang..mrh pn xde..bia la die dgn kebhgiaan die sndr..ak x sme dgn org len..putus cnta je nk update status buruk2kn ex gf/bf die kt fb..caci maki die kt fon..mrh giler2 n nangis x ingt dunia..ocnfirmla tu bkn ak kn even awl2 dlu  mmg nangis jg la tp pastu mmg dh tekad x nk nangis dh psl die..life must goes on..if die bhgia,kte jg blh bhgia..kte sndr la yg kna cri jln tok bhgiakn dri kte..mrh sbb ati d permenkn??? xperlula..mkin kte b'dendam,mkin kte skt ati..ati pn x tenang..lgpn knala pcye jodoh kte Allah yg ttpkn..dh Dia ckp jodoh kte n si die smpai situ je,redha la..ko nk meroyan giler2 pn x gne sbb klu dh d tkdirkn die bkn jdoh kte,xdeny die dtg kt kte blk..accept jela ketentuan tu..redha n doakn kbhgiaan die jg..

only once in ur life

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. 

When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. 

There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. 

Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face.

 In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. 

You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. 

Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”